October 19, 2017
07:00AM
Dear Apa,
OK. First of all, let me apologize for I didn’t write to you in the last 11 months. I’m apologizing but I know you’d understand, you always do! And even when you’re never gonna require me to explain, something tells me that I still owe you an explanation. Well, the reason is—I know you probably already know this—that I am a lazy person. Too lazy to write to you. And I’m sorry.
But if you’re going to think of it, maybe it’s even a good thing that I didn’t write you any letter in the past months ‘coz usually, I only write when I’m feeling depressed about anything. Maybe I was never depressed for almost a year.
Anyway, now that I’m writing to you again doesn’t mean that I’m depressed again. Maybe feeling a little sad but not depressed. Actually, it’s a bitter-sweet feeling. Isn’t separation anxiety supposed to feel this way?
Yes, you read it right. I’m going through SepAnx once again. I got the sack from my employer—let us groan to that. Losing this job was really a nightmare. Not because I was very much devoted to it, I mean, I never was devoted to any job, but because I know that I’m gonna miss the people I worked with. My team mates were like my family, no kidding. I never worked with people like them before. Every single one of them already found their own spaces in my heart. It may sound cheesy but hey, what can I do, that’s the truth.
I’m sure having them as my team mates was one of the biggest factors why I didn’t feel depressed and didn’t write to you for 11 months. Honestly, I don’t remember a time when I felt sad about anything with them. Especially with Chris, but I guess the story about him deserves a separate letter dedicated entirely to my memories of him.
And guess what, I finally had a TL that was never a pain in the ass. TL Marya is by far the best TL I had. And ofcourse I will tell you more about her next time.
For now, I just wanna let you know that I haven’t forgotten about you Apa. You’re the only person I can confide in who would never complain. ‘Coz you have no choice! LOL. I’m gonna try to be less lazy and write to you more often now. I missed doing this. I missed you!
it's me,
Tuesday
